almost

so

every once in awhile i feel like i am waking up from a dream. it happens at the oddest times.

i look at my life and my mind and where i have been and what i have done

and i feel like i have been pretty hard on myself and i don't appreciate it, and i should feel better about it. but instead i choose to write about it in a stupid online journal so that hopefully, i will look at this message on some other random night at some other random point in my life and remember just what it was i was trying to decide that i felt.

and now, right now, i have to go and close my eyes and pass out and go back into that dream, wherever that actually is.

there, then, was my point.